I've always wanted to be different. Something that distinguishes me from the rest of the crowd. Call it being adament if you want. In addition, i've wanted to do what i thought was correct. Absolutely irrespective of what others thought of me. The consequences, at times have been disastrous.
I don't know whther these two nuances can still be attributed to me. Or, it's possible that i've shed them. At the same time, these are ingrained in me, i guess. Be it my scorn for gold and it's products, or that i maintain a short length of hair perhaps, because many tend long tresses. I'm neither bothered nor worried.
As result i expect things to proceed in that way which i suppose. Especially of those which i passionately care about. On the personal level, i refuse to deny or even try to justify my actions, though it lacks substance. Academically, that immediate decision that i made while enrolling for B.Sc. was good. And the conscious effort to go to Mysuru for post-graduate studies is very well appreciated.
I want those days, which lie ahead of me, to satisfy me. I want it simply because i desire it. M gave me a piece of her mind, as i couldn't see the overall picture. I see only that portion that i wish to. This is certainly not pragmatic, or even logical to say the least.
Bigotry, i know. But, i covet it. Hard work, yes, how much of it? I really don't know. The outcome, yes, again because i believe in it. What if it does not happen, my life is doomed, for sure.