Wednesday, January 16, 2008

me: an idiosyncratic

People at my department, looked at me in a strange way, during those initial days. I wondered why. I presumed this, even before i started attending classes. Mother too supported my thoughts. I shrugged such ideas. Why would anybody treat me in a different manner?

They would, because i'm from Bengalooru. I never thought that this particular noun had weight attached to it.

My classmates, hardly spoke to me, during those initial days. The reason, i assume, is that i would throw airs, you know, having studied at MCC, and being a Banglorean(for want of the revised term) and all that. So what?!

Do i sport a pair of fancy horns, because of these two factors. It makes one feel out-of-place.

This turned to be more evident as time passed. Whenever i hummed a kannada track, my classmates looked askance at me. The same thing happened when i started using kannada in my everyday speech. Like i've descended from some alien planet.

It's not pleasant, mind you. I've had people asking me weird questions when i went forward to help around in the department. It's very strange.

When fresh faces join in as juniors in the forthcoming academic year, i don't want the same treatment meted to them. It does make one feel queer. It, definately is not likeable.

4 comments:

CHITRA CHARITA said...

It takes a lot of courage to speak to 'fresh and unknown faces '.
I am sure you will take the initiative oftener and realise that 'they' are merely shy/reticent/apprehensive...They just needan icepicker to break the ice ;) that is a coversational catalyst
I have a colleague who looked too high and mighty when she joined a few months ago. When the ice broke, I find her simple and down to earth !
neela

mouna said...

neela,
i agree with you. but i was asked some very weird questions. i was shocked, to say the least. when i hum a kannada song, or speak in kannada. they were like 'oh! mouna does know kannada. mouna sings kannada songs too' with mouths wide open. i didn't know how to respond to that!

CHITRA CHARITA said...

you may not match AVARA mental model of a girl from MCC.
It is THEIR problem.
neela

mouna said...

neela,
perhaps, i didn't. :D :D :D