down the drain... and surviving it

When i do plan something nice, and wait for it to happen. It hardly does. Most times, i stop myself from proceeding, as i know it'll not work out. Atleast the wretched feeling of chagrin is saved.

All the eagerness, excitement vanishes to leave an empty feeling. A very empty one. It does get very annoying(mind you, i'm trying to be nice here, as 'annoy' is just the tip of the iceberg). But, isn't that the path which all of us have to undertake?

Everything that we wish for need not prove itself true. The worst case scenario is when everything flops. Inshallah!! Hope none of us face such a situation, ever.

Such a scene teaches us patience. More importantly, it helps us concentrate on other stuff. Thus, we tend to rediscover old incidents, habits. We also learn in the process. Learn about new things.

At times, when i do arrive at a phase as this one, what would i have done?

The first thing that i would have done is pick a book and read through it. If the situation is really desparate, i'd rather choose, something, that i know will comfort me. I'd derive a smile from those characters.

Painting would be a another option. I think so. On oil paper, if my mood picks up. Or on MS-Paint. I think i'd go for oil-the paper option, than using MS-Paint software. I've begun to enjoy the movement of brushes on paper. And the manner in which colours merge, ah!!

Music can be the third. You know which song will cheer your senses. And you tend to play a couple of times.

To sense the winds and the works of a milieu of people walking about the place. I realized that it's very soothing recently. It can calm a frizzled mind, to quite an extent.

Perhaps, the last on the list will be to switch on the television set. For i've come to not depend on it for recreation. They always broadcast some rot, when you are indeed free.

What would you do?