Things are to take place, in my life. Concerning me and my further studies. Other big decisions have to be taken, of course. I'm speaking of the situation, till now. Everybody at home are tensed. M too. Why are my folks so worked up? Seeing the lines of anxiousness on their face, i'm wired too. Obviously with a-kind-of-charged-environment at home. M calls, puts new thoughts into father's head(which seem pretty weird to me). Thankfully i'm not impressed with her ideas. Otherwise i too would have gone bonkers, by now.
Father gets ideas(they do make sense) in the middle of the night, just when i'm getting to bed. We discuss, mother chipping in, with her view point. I'll think about it, make myself clear, say 'ahem' and go to sleep. At college, friends and i, again talk about the same thing. One positive aspect is that, we talk in a meandering fashion, and end up somewhere. This 'somewhere', does provide some relief to me.
I do not get anxious prior to almost any kind of situation. And i don't fancy seeing my folks worried. One simply loses the peace of mind, loses sleep, and what not. Convincing them that my future will good(especially to mother), telling them about my plans(a dozen times till now) consumes time.
Money-wise, mother is fidgetty. Well, since it shows on her face, father is also nervous. Pure science does not offer much. It applies to me all the more as i'm a biology student. Mother is already talking my earnings, if i'll be able to live a comfortable life.....
Thinking in retrospect, it's natural for them to be excited. Afterall, they are my parents, and mother moreso, as she is my mother.
I was unsure of things before. Now, that i've streamlined my thoughts limiting myself to particular subjects, i feel much better.
How i wish i proceed with a calm frame of mind! I just hope that, what i aspire for, turns out to be true. Till now, things have been happening, which are to my satisfaction. I think the same will, no, should continue(thus, i support, encourage myself)!