Thursday, June 08, 2006

Mind - A Processor

Speaking the truth is always difficult.......it is also, not approachable....as such. Today's world does not guarantee this .....even to a minute extent. So....what is the aim of evolution??....that of the mind......the senses....the body......the soul...

The other day... we were travelling down... J.C.Road....caught in a traffic jam.....as usual. Unc 1 was reminiscing about the old Bangalore.....and the feelings attached to it were being drawn out......Unc. 2 was however cursing the government ....the reckless bikers. Sitting in the middle........i told that it is we, who are to take care of the situation....and the blame lies in us......

Unc. 2 labelled it as bham-wham bullshit.....that i was being very idealistic. He questioned me as to whether i follow the things in which lies my trust. The answer was positive.....and he replied that the stuff is all mad....senseless.....

Prima facie.......do we believe in ourselves....or what have we brought ourselves to......a civilised-cum-barbaric world.....where one does not have time for the others.

Realising this fact...recently.....has thrown my mind into a swirling abyss....into never-ending darkness.

The fact...that my father depends on me moreso now.......after my sister's marraige has opened my eyes........slapping on my face for the past misgivings that we had. The extent was so much that i had to accompany himon every little thing......irrespective of the size. He has indeed adjusted to a new environment ....... a new home.....which revolves around the absence of my sister.

I guess, all of the world have to face these disappearing acts performed by people......where they are caught unawares in the face of time and space.

The only consolation......that is available to us......is to strengthen ourselves........with the help of others. Previously.....i tried to oppose the meaningfull adage....' Man is a social being '.......but circumstance has slapped me with the truth.

What do i make of it........the fact that a part of my home is empty.......to be filled by something else.

Searching for that 'something else' has ensued upon itself. Having attempted to fill in the ever-widening gap......has proven to be difficult. Behold...it's proven fruitful......the smile of my niece lighting home again.

Her laughter sounds like that of tinkling bells.......gushing with full force......like water to meet the sea. Her dark black eyes......mischief, happiness always playing around them. Bringing along with her.....the warmth....the joy to be soaked by us.

Creation has always surprised me.......posing many twists...and turns.....

And i do admit that i am idealistic......following them religiously.......with a penchant so strong that it astonishes me. To scold my parents for having dirtied the park......getting screwed myself for having not bargained with the vegetable-vendor.

To end......with a phrase....that is dear to me.....reminded endlessly...... by my friends..

With love....

5 comments:

Shiv said...

Mouna,
Looks like u still r missing your sister a lot..

I feel it is good to be idealistic but it sometimes may land you in uncomfortable situations..

I totally agree with u that its not government's job alone to maintain things.We as citizens has some basic things to do..

mouna said...

Shiv,
Actually what i wanted to emphasize is...the imp. of relationships...and life.....aadru i am v.young to comment on such a matter....as u said....my beliefs have landed me in trouble....heavily to mention.....
but what can one do....
i always have this question...
naavennu nabtivo adanna seriyaagi follow maadlikke aagdedre what's the use.....ob...i'm being stubborn.....but otherwise it's useless alva??

Shiv said...

Yes..ideally given a chance anybody would love to be idealistic..they wud want to stick to what they believe..

But life is not like that..life doesnt go in such a text-buk like fashion.Sometimes it demands things which are not so comfortable to our beliefs..

Anonymous said...

hey...places cannot be blank...and cannot be filled by somebody else...relationships work in the same fashion...a new member a kid..will always bring joy...will help you to get back to your normal self..

mouna said...

yes, thanks again, places cannot be filled by somebody else.

i guess i'm back to normal(almost), considering that this post was written quite some time back!