There exists an adventurer in me. That which yearns to explore new terrain. She made me shift to a new city.
Shifting to a new location; i knew i had to do it. Though my mother and M(to some extent) were quite against it. Emotions ruled mother high. Perhaps, i thought about it too. But, other ideas pushed it into the depth of my mind.
It resurfaced when i located to Mysooru. With a bang, i should say. Remembering my folks at home, M in a far away land; it is hard. To overcome it, i found it tough. Frankly speaking, i still am in the process.
I'm thankful to the wonderful invention called 'mobile phone', and the expressway between Bengalooru and Mysooru. It has me connected, with me travelling to Bengalooru frequently.
When M got married a little more than a year ago, i felt lost. I'm sure my parents felt stranded too. At the same time, i can say that i drew closer to my parents. Time helped to us understand each other better, it allowed for my personal growth, committing mistakes and learning from them. Understanding myself a little better, and polishing my habits.
That was also the time when i started liking responsiblities. Lending a hand when required, doing small chores in the house, looking after my parents when one fell ill. These small incidents made me bond closer to them.
And, now, here i am. Leading an 'independant' life. I feel troubled. Did i do the right thing by opting to stay away from home? Will my parents manage without me? Will not loneliness and helplessness bother them?
Both of them are hale and hearty. They look out for new means to spend time. Perfectly fine, so as to say. They appear comfortable.
Such thoughts plague me. Though, they are okay. And when i know that i need to pay more attention towards my studies. I hope i'm able to come out of this, using time, of course.